rahhh! i feel so uncomfortable that i havn't done sports in awhile. i need to have it least three times a week for me to feel at ease. been missing out on climbing for a few months now cos of this particular commitment which i'm glad i'm no longer committed to come january. and missing out on soccer as well cos it always clashes with competitions / festive holidays. anyhow, i'm looking forward to climbing with fel at nus this monday. and soccer on sunday. but i forsee the rain being a hinderance. and don't get me started on dragonboating. i miss it so much. [plunging the paddle hard into the water + pulling with all ur might] X 1000 = awesome workout. i succumbed to temptation this afternoon. in the morning we were like, "ok lets hit the gym in the afternoon". and when it was afternoon, we were at parkway parade feasting / shopping. where is my discipline?! i suspect it's the whole "ord mood" thing. can't seem to be bothered with work / protocols / ranks. they all count for naught when you're civilian. at least not till i enter the working world again.

so many people to catch up with. i need to come up with a checklist. cheryl, if only i can tell you how bad i feel for pulling out so many times. some things are holding me back and i guess we just have different goals. on the topic of checklist, i need to come up with a to-get list as well.

i've got a lot of reading to do before school starts. i'm so gonna need a greater sense of urgency. someone to spur me on would be great. how i wish the girl was back sooner. at least before 2009. what bad timing. i wonder what she could be doing now. judging by the time, i'd be surprised if her eyes were still open.