It's about 3am right now and i'm dead beat from the long day i had. It's been a tiring but fun-filled weekend, packed with loads of travelling. Lets see...I travelled from north-east, to east, to west, to east, to west, to east and back to north-east again. That's really quite an extensive amount of travelling in a day given that the east and west were bedok and jurong/tuas area respectively. And i drove three different cars over the weekends! The mix of japanese and continental left me hitting the wrong switches every now and then, the standard wiper for signal light mix-up. I enjoyed driving the girlfriend's Mark X. My first time driving a 2.5L, takes awhile to get use to the throttle. Especially when parking. Had a couple of "WOAH" moments.
On the topic of driving, it occured to me on the way home that the drive back by myself always seem to take longer than the drive to her house, despite the route travelled being the same. I guess companionship makes a big difference. Life would probably unfold so much slower without a companion. Anyway, driving alone past 12am in a rainy weather is a great setting to let your thoughts wander. The solitude, lack of traffic, cool weather and therapeutic raindrop splatter is so totally the recipe for musing over your life.
The outcome of all that musing? I like my life now. In fact, like might be an understatement. I don't really wanna go back to school. I'm not looking forward to the next semester. As much as everyone dreads the end of their student life, I really wish I was done with school. I like working. No, i'm not a pervert. I just enjoy doing things, real things. I enjoy acquiring knowledge too but I don't have to be a full-time student to be able to do that. I wish school was like a 4 year internship instead. Where i don't just "learn, learn, learn" but "learn as i do", if you get what i mean. A more hands-on, practical approach to learning. We may have our projects, presentations and stuff in school, but it's never quite like the real deal knowing at the end of the day that it's all merely a mock exercise with little or no implications other than the effect it has on our grades. What do grades signify anyway?
In a couple of weeks time I'd be making my first actual non-academic, corporate presentation. It's kinda exciting and i'm looking forward to it. But the thing is i shouldn't have had to wait 23 years for this. I should've been allowed to this sometime earlier in life, perhaps a few years earlier. Would i have been ready? Would i have done a great job? Probably not. I may have screwed it up or produce something with an effect equivalent to that of a faceplant. But then i would've learnt so much from it. As the saying goes, there's no better teacher than experience itself. I hate mock exercises just as how i hate mock meat. Makes a mockery out of the real deal.
Even though i got quite a bit out of it, i use to think national service was a tremendous waste of time. I use to see it as this thing that just holds me back from the greater things in life. I'm starting to get the same feeling for school . It's not that i think it's useless, but it just holds me back from the greater things in life. Takes up my time.
Truth be told, one of the other reasons why i like the way things are right now is because of how my schedule has become so in sync with the girlfriend's. Even our work places are within such close proximity. Almost wired to perfection.
I enjoy the company around me. I enjoy internship. Though not as much as before, i still do enjoy school. I enjoy my life right now. It's comfortable. And comfort is a dangerous thing. Comfort breeds complacency. I for one am highly susceptible to complacency.
p.s. i know it's past 12am but happy 4 years 8 months anniversary sweetheart. :)